That Dark Passenger

That Dark Passenger is serious, some of you know what I am talking about, I have that Dark Passenger. That side that can flare up if I don't stay consistent in alignment and disciplined with my daily habits. If I don't stay focused on my goals/purpose that Dark Passenger starts to play tricks on my mind.

Probably, no definitely stems from the trauma of my childhood. This Dark Passenger can cause absolute chaos. What is this Dark Passenger?

It is those toxic traits that flare up when hurt, cornered or at a low vibration state. It's that downright MEANNESS that infiltrates my mind and causes me to go down dark rabbit holes of thought.

I have an insane side to me that's dangerous, truly dangerous when I feel cornered or if I feel my options are running out. I'm like an anti-social Pit Bull. Once that Volume dial hits 10, man...it's wild where that side of my mindset can go to. Not good, best to barricade me in solitary till I calm down.

Once that level is tapped into I'm seeing RED, Level 10 I lose all control and it's like the ultimate breaking of my character. It's almost psychotic like for me. I've only met the Dark Passenger twice in my life. I was truly disgusted at how I acted. When the darkness comes all my standards, principles and discipline are gone, no more rules. It was a scary and sad time for me, I lost all my wits, my calmness and all bets were off.

It doesn't come when I'm on my daily path, it comes when I think too much of our current government, current landscape of our country and when I allow the demons of my childhood to infiltrate my mind.

I don't want to break character, I only broke twice in over 50 years of life. I've got to remain cool-calm-collected. If I remain composed all will be okay. I need a clear eyed view for my day. I need to train to be my best self for not only ME but the Tribe of people I care about.

I need to make the right choices that make me feel proud, maintain my level of selfishness for that 1 hour per day. This 4 am wake up is for me to be the best version, master self, self mastery.

I need to keep that Dark Passenger locked up, by keeping FRAME with my daily discipline, knowing who I am with good vibes and good alignment.

Nothing good comes from letting this Dark Passenger in. I got to keep him in the rear view, locked in the trunk.

If I don't then there is a high probability that I will become the very thing that I hate the most.

Nuff said,

Machine out.